Adjusting our Sails.

August 8, 2014

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This is the first summer in years that I felt that time stood still for a little while. I pushed pause in July on work related things to simply BE. To think about the day only as they came. To have time to spend quiet moments on the back patio with Gabe smoking an occasional cigar, and talking about our family’s future. Time to engage in long conversations with Veronica interpreting her numerous drawings, reading books and dozing off to sleep with Max, and building master forts with Gabriel. This summer and I had something good going, and it has made it a little harder to come to terms with it coming to a close.

When I was a girl summers lasted forever… chasing “lightening bugs” at dusk, staying up late giggling with my sisters, running through the paths our dad would mow in the yard for us, climbing trees and eating watermelon in my grandparents backyard…I would do almost anything for just one more of those days, but for the first time in many years, I had a taste of it again.

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Now I have three little ones of my own and they are in the middle of the golden years. Gabriel is an inquisitive, compassionate, and imaginative 5 year old willing to rise to any challenge you propose. Veronica is a strong willed, musically inclined, sensitive 3 year old always looking for an angle. Max is a curious, stubborn, and cuddly little 1 year old ready to conquer the world one sofa at a time.

First day of Kindergarten
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As any mother knows, you would give up everything for them at a moments time. And as they grow you have to slowly let go as they enter their little feet into the world. Today was Gabriel’s first day of Kindergarten. He will be gone all day every day of the week. I am not going to pretend I am not super attached to my children. There were many tears mixed with proud moments as I scrubbed his shoes, prepped his backpack, and laid out his uniform. It is hard to let go. It is hard to trust them into someone’s care. Today, as I saw his little smiling face look back one more time in the classroom, I felt a wave of gratitude for good teachers. They help us mothers loosen our grip a little and have the courage and confidence that they are ready:)

And so our summer comes to a close. We are adjusting our sails as every new season seems to demand, but when you allow the adjusting to take place, there is peace. And peace leaves room for gratitude, which is the royal chair for happiness it seems:)

“You cannot direct the wind, but you can always adjust your sail.” – Ash Sweeney

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  • You are just the sweetest mom. Thanks for being such an inspiration to me.

  • That one of Gabriel and V hugging is just so precious. My little Grace is starting preschool in a few weeks–it will definitely be a big change for us. It’s bittersweet, but I know it will be so good for her so I can’t help but be excited. 🙂

  • heather j

    I love your take on motherhood. So sweet! I feel that urge to fight the upcoming adjustment(s) but you are so right, when we let change happen as it should, there can be a great sense of peace.

  • this was a sweet, sweet post. i still love watching out for fireflies in summertime.

  • I’m petrified for the ‘First Day of School’. I know I still have a little while but reading this made me skip a few years to that day and boy, I didn’t ever ever think I’d be a mess but, I’m going to be a mess.

  • Looks like you’ve got something amazing going on! Thanks!

  • Anna, I adore this. I too took time off this summer and extended it because, like you, I felt so rewarded by the simple things, really and truly enjoying those precious little moments with my family. Summer only comes around once a year and I’m thankful to have the ability to stay home with the kids and enjoy the entire summer with them. Next year, I will take the entire summer off, because this break was exactly what all of our hearts needed. So thankful.

  • This was beautifully written. I myself am getting ready to send my daughter to daycare in a little more than a week, and although it will only be for 3 days a week I find myself tearing up at the idea of her not being with me every single day! It’s very hard to let go but it must be done, I’m praying that God will give me strength that day 🙂

    Lovely post! Love your blog- you inspire me!

  • Jana Zuniga

    This gave me goosebumps and I’m not even a mom 🙂 Loved this one Anna!

  • I have been finding it a challenge right now to just BE and embrace the current season of life. But when it happens it is great 🙂 ps. your family is adorable

  • This was such a sweet post Anna, I hope we can be in a similar place to you guys one day.

    Buckets & Spades

  • nice! congratulations and keep writing no matter what! Ana (Sarah Metts mom)

  • Golly, this was beautiful and just what I needed to read. Xo

  • Montrer que le régime retire sur Houla aujourd’hui même, ce qui signe sa responsablité pour les massacres précédent, vous pose apparemment un pbm. C’est étrange car c’est quand mm de l&aunuo;informrtioq.Pest être que vous mm n’êtes pas objectif pour dire cela.Aujourd’hui personne n’est objectif. Vive la révolution syrienne. A bas le régime et ses supporters et ses shabihas, mêmes objectifs.

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