Tomorrow I will be 9 weeks along with our rainbow baby. Feels surreal to share that with you all, as I wasn’t sure if I would get another chance to have another little one. Our children were hoping and praying for a new baby for a long time now, and it was one of the best surprises to share with them! This video we took was right after we told them the news. Veronica said she “wanted to cry because she was so happy.” Me too baby girl, me too.
I feel so grateful for my 5 children, and I knew even if our family would never grow again, I would have felt at peace. I always keep close to my heart women who have lost a baby (or several), and I am acutely aware of all those who are struggling to conceive. I know will never have the answers to why this happens to good people, but I will always believe God never intended that kind of pain for this world, and can bring good even from our deepest sorrows. Losing a baby left a hole in my heart, and getting the opportunity to carry another life is something I will always feel undeserving of! All I have is immense gratitude. (A rainbow baby is the term that is used for a baby that comes after a miscarriage.) We cannot wait to find out who God intended for our family. It’s going to be a loooong hot Atlanta summer as we wait! Answering a few q’s below…
Due Date? September 18th (Azelie was due September 29th and came exactly a month early! Hoping we make it to September this time around.)
When did you find out? My cycle was late in January and although that has happened before I woke up with a flash of nausea one night, and just immediately knew. The pregnancy test confirmed it the next day.
How did you tell Gabe? My first few babies I was a little more creative with how to tell Gabe, but this time around I was a tad impatient. I basically waited just a few hours after taking the pregnancy test. Ha! We got the kids down for bed, and he brought out a big bottle of moscato (the only wine I can drink), champagne, and snacks as we turned on The Office. He poured me a glss, and I basically had to flat out tell him then. “Uh, Gabe. I can’t exactly drink this wine…”
Are you going to find out if it’s a boy or a girl? Haven’t decided yet, but if we do, it will be kept a secret between Gabe and I till the baby is born. Surprising the kids when they visit the hospital room is some of the best moments in life.
How have you been feeling? When I was pregnant with Cecilia I was pretty exhausted and nauseous, so I feel pretty lucky that right now I’m a little tired, but not bad. I feel pretty icky at night, but it’s manageable. To be honest, I welcome the feeling knowing it means the baby is healthy.
Pregnancy cravings? Not really which is unusual for me! I’m always down for fries, pickles, or ice cream though;)
Do you have names ready? The next day after I told Gabe we were expecting, we went out on a date and he said “So I’ve been thinking about names….” I was like, “Already?!” Ha! I love that about him. We already decided on the boy name, but girl names are tough! We have about 5 we really like!
I cannot to hold a little newborn again. Of course I have moments of feeling overwhelmed, and how will we be able to adjust to another. I just know as I learned with Azelie, it will all be as it should. I have never shared a pregnancy sooner than 12 weeks, but this time around I wanted to share the joy no matter how long this baby is with us. I know having a larger family today is uncommon, and even rubs people’s feathers the wrong way, but I have found you all to be such a warm hearted community. Gabe and I are grateful for that! I know I say it often, but once again, thank you for the love and support you have showed our family.
